Sometimes it's the Little Things

There are some times when I see Jesus, and there are some times when I don't.

There are some times when I hear Jesus, and there are some times when I don't.

There are some times when I'm really seeking Jesus, and there are some times when I'm not.

I've come to realize, however that there are no times when God is not pursuing me. There are no times that God doesn't see me. There are no times that God doesn't hear me. There are no times that God is not asking me to seek him more-to walk closer with Him. There are no times that God is saying, "Alright, that's enough...can you back off a little?"

There are times when I say that to God though. There are times when I let my own thoughts and opinions outweigh what God is trying to get through to me.

But, at all times- when we ask God for answers-He brings something to the table. In some way or another- in some time frame or another- He answers us. And, it's always stories of God coming to the aid of his people that spur me onward and strengthen my faith the most.

I recently submitted applications for next year...and after sending them in, two things set in-relief and worry. I was relieved to have them over with. However, I found myself playing the sorry "What if" game in my head over and over. I laid in bed and let my head run wild...What if I don't get in? Then what? What if I should've said this? What if I should've written this? What if I never get a job period? What if I have to move back home? What if I should have majored in this? What if I'm supposed to go here, but don't know? Mainly...what if I don't get in anywhere? What if...blah, blah, blah. I honestly really tried to just not think about it and to surrender it to God, but I struggled with trusting the unknown to Him that night. So after a while...I realized that I would not be getting sleep by just reeling things around in my head. I decided to read some of my Bible sooo I turned on the light and took one small, intentional step towards peace. I prayed that God would speak to me. that He would calm my heart.

No surprise that the first thing I found/read was Psalm 112:7-8:
"He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. His heart is secure, he will have no fear; in the end he will look on triumph on his foes."

Minus the triumph on the foes part...exactly what I needed to hear. God reminded me that I am His. that my future is firmly protected in Him. that I should have no worry or fear of any news-good or bad- because at the end of the day, I am blessed to be pursued and directed by the One who has already brought me the GREATEST news I will ever receive, the Gospel of Christ. Nothing else will ever affect me to the same extent that He does. And, I can rest assured that God will finish his work in me as He sees fit.

Whenever we call to God, He answers us in some way. in some time.  And, it's in the little things like the other night...when God met with a worried, stubborn-hearted girl. through two verses. in one Psalm. in the middle of the night so that she could get some sleep. that I'm reminded of how much the Lord loves us. I pray that we never lose sight of just how GOOD that news is.